Inspirational Lunch With A Mother & Teacher

Day 1 cont’d….

I just came back from a lunch with a friend because I could!
I would usually be eating some leftovers that I reheated while sitting at my desk replying to client emails…

BUT today I could go out and enjoy eating with good company and conversation… so I did!
What inspired me about this (enough to make me want to write about it) is the “teacher”

It is my friends birthday today, so I joined her for lunch with her Mother and her Sister… her sister is a teacher and she teaches intermediate students grades 7 & 8…

Well when you asked her about her job she absolutely just lit up! Went on about how much she LOVED her job and how WONDERFUL her students are… how she is pushing the borders with bringing in new ways to reach her students through technology and giving them the opportunity to choose what they want to learn….

What a breath of fresh air that was!!!!

At one point in the conversation she had to stop and say ” I will literally talk about this forever, so if you want to talk about something else I suggest you do”…

Here’s the thing… I didn’t want to talk about something else…
I wanted to sit there for hours and listen to her talk about how much she loved what she did… it was truly inspiring..

Once lunch was finished and the food was settled, we parted ways and a sort of sadness sunk in… I was just so inspired and happy for someone… why do I now feel so unsettled and anxious??

And then it hit me… I wish I could be that passionate about something in my life…

So here’s what I’m going to do… I’m going to find something that makes me shine the way she did when she talked about her students..

Day 1…

Today is January 3rd and it’s my 1st official day of unemployment since I was 15 years old… Today is a day dedicated to math!

Let’s say I live to be 80… that equals 29,220 days (including 20 leap years)

I have already worked 5,325 days of my life (including 150 days off assuming I take or get at least 2 weeks off a year)

Let’s say I retire at 65 I still have to work 12,425 days (again including vacation)

That’s a total of 17,750 days of my life!
That leaves out of the possible 29,220 days of my life…
11,470 to actually do what I want
BULLSHIT!!!

This has made me feel much better about my decision to walk out on my job yesterday…

So I write you this morning on my official 1st day of unemployment to tell you that the average person probably works at the least 65% of their life… and we only live once!

I am going to head out and enjoy this day… I have absolutely no idea what I will do… Please check back later I will update you on my travels

Cheers!

Your time is li…

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
– Steve Jobs

Officially unemployed…

Today is January 2, 2013 I am 30 years old and officially unemployed.

I guess there is something about the holidays that really make you want to re evaluate your life…
People always get gushy over “So this is Christmas… and what have you done?? Another year over… a new one just begun”
At least I think those are the lyrics… you all know what I mean… that damn commercial gets me every time… BUT what do I do about it??? Yep… nothing…

Most people if they are lucky enough have jobs and get time off from them during the holidays… if they are lucky enough they have people they love that they get to spend that time off with… Thus it being such a wonderful time of year

Then the weeks of looking forward to Christmas pass… the excitement of getting time off from work and spending time with loved ones goes away… we all go back to our normal everyday lives with nothing else to look forward to…

This is why we set New Year Resolutions! Yipppeeeee!!!! This New Year is going to bring a new me!!
I’m going to eat better, exercise more, quit smoking, drink less, I will read more books, I will volunteer, maybe run a marathon! All of the things I think will make a better me… all of the things that I imagine happy people do..

Well…. that new me never arrives.. New Year after New Year after New Year… I think this is the year that broke the camels back…

I was sitting in our boardroom this afternoon, we just HAD to have a meeting our first day back from our wonderful time away… so as you can imagine, I was already cranky and not wanting to be where I was.. (most days I’m not where I want to be)

I don’t know what came over me but as I usually do, I start daydreaming about all of the things I could be doing with my day… some times I’m on a beach, sometimes I’m riding a horse, other days I’m at home with my kids just being a stay at home parent, cooking and cleaning and making my home a place my family loves to come to…

Well today, my daydream was to get up and walk out… my dream came true!

It wasn’t like Jerry McGuire who’s coming with me!?? It wasn’t dramatic or did it happen in the middle of this huge business pitch BUT it did happen and now I am officially unemployed…

I was walked out after my resignation, so I don’t have to give them 2 more weeks of my life.. I feel overwhelmed with a sense of what am I doing with my life??? How will I pay my rent?? I don’t have any savings… BUT I also feel so free…
I wanted to start to write and take account of my new life moving forward.. I am out to find the person I have been trying to be…